Dream

Last night I had a strange dream...well i guess it wasn't that strange...it just made me think about things. In the dream, someone's facebook status said "someone-who-will-remain-nameless is explain the desert to me." I know, it makes absolutely no sense. One of my friends had commented on it already and just gave some simple dictionary explanation and I began to think about what my answer would be. I decided that I would agree with her comment but add that it's a bad place to be stuck in. Once the illusions of water start to appear, it's terrible. It's something you want sooo bad. You're running towards it and right when you reach it, you go to grab and it runs away into the distance. So you chase it once again. Same things happens over and over. You get close enough to touch it and it fades away. Yet you keep chasing after what you want in hopes that it will actually be real eventually. Obviously I'm not just referring to water -- it plays into everything you desire. You run after it with all your might, but sometimes you can never actually grasp it. Then I woke up and kept thinking about that dream. I decided that's probably how God feels sometimes too. Except, with him, we are the vision of water. We draw so close to him and make him think "okay, i've got them for good this time." But then when we don't get our way or what we want, we slip away out of his reach again. We'll come close again then draw back away. Maybe it's not like this for everyone, but it is with me. When everything seems to be going exactly the way I want it to, I can't be happier. I rejoice with all my might. Yet when I can't have what I want, it's a completely different story. I keep having to remind myself that God's thoughts are higher than mine and he knows what's best for me. Just because I don't get what I desire doesn't mean it's not what's best for me.

By the way, this mad alot more sense when I was thinking about it at 4am this morning haha. Oh well.